Love – An indescribable feeling that draws one another closer than comfort

I know that is not the dictionary definition for love. This is my current take on love for today. It seems everyday love has a new definition, a new meaning.

Love at times is comfort, peace, desire, passion, alone time, a thought, a feeling, or an action.

I love my family very much and I would move heaven and earth to make them happy and make sure that they are well taken care of. Recently I have been thinking of getting a tattoo. The one above is a tattoo my sister got begging the rest of us to follow suit. She has just entered adulthood and has not had an easy go of it. I have always been proud of the fact that I don’t want tattoos, but the more I think about it. I believe my sister is reaching out for love from us and I think sharing this experience with her may be a positive event in her life. So this week I have really began to reflect on love and where we seek out love from.

In my younger days after I moved out of my parents house and across country. I desperately wanted to be loved in a romantic relationship. I was very sheltered as a child and even though I got engaged at a very young age, it was not a good relationship for me. So when I moved and started over I started meeting people online. I knew it was dangerous (thank God I was always safe) I do not recommend posting on craigslist that you want to make out with someone because you are desperate for “love & attention”. At the same time all I could think was why won’t someone I know notice that I am drowning and call out to me. I meet some crazy people, and made some friends; I would not trade those experiences for anything. They taught me a lot about who I was and what I really wanted in life.

I am married now and living back in the same state as my family where I grew up. There are times now where I am still that lonely person seeking love, but now I have the right places to go. I have my family who supports me and my husband who has my heart as his first priority with the best intentions. Now that I have that safe place to seek love out. I want to make sure that I can be that place for those I love. I want to be the sister who is there for advice and to have new experiences with, I want to be the wife who is supportive and honoring, I want to be the friend who you can count on.

I still fail in all these areas from time to time as darkness tries to tie me up and throw me in the bottom of the pit. It is in those times where I need to remind myself that I can seek love in the right places. I don’t need to turn to the arms of a stranger, I have family and friends who would move heaven and earth to see me succeed. This brings hope to my heart that no matter what darkness I face. I can stand again.

Thank you to all my family and friends who give me hope and inspiration daily to live on and hope for the best things in life.

Zephaniah 3:17New Living Translation (NLT)