Yesterday turned out surprisingly well. I was extremely frustrated at work and really just wanted to quit my job and give up. I hate being trapped by a desk job. I spend 90% of my day alone in this office and I need to be around other people once in a while. I was thinking back on my favorite job working at a restaurant and wishing I could work there again. (The restaurant owner retired and closed shop) My roommate sent out a text asking if anyone at the house wanted to go to the church and have worship practice. Everyone at my house is on the worship team so this is normal. We all love music very much. All I could think was I have been so busy and frustrated I just want to go home and ignore the world. (This is not good for me, I was trying to isolate myself even more.) But I made a choice. As I was leaving work I responded to the text and said, sure lets do it!
This mental choice to say yes and go do something I enjoy no matter how I felt in the moment lead to a great time! Instead of going to the church we just went to the garage at home. We have a whole sound system set up in there. We opened the garage door and just started trying out new songs that we have not played together yet.
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that’s of worth
That will bless your heart
I’ll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You’re looking into my heart
I’m coming back to the heart of Worship
“When The Music Fades” by Matt Redman
This song perfectly captures my heart when I sit down and start singing. As my fingers passionately strike the piano keys words just start floating out of my heart. I feel like nothing else in the world matters and the depth of my heart is being search as joy, pain, happiness are all being pulled to the surface to become a beautiful and some time messy sound.
I never considered myself a good singer or an amazing pianist, I cannot even read music, I play by sound. Over these last 3 years, music has become my life. It’s something that brings me joy in a way that I never thought to seek out.
I would hope that every person who reads this has found that passion, that something that bring them joy in life. An experience of the Good Times.